Currently talking to Matt on the Wonder that is Facebook and I've come to realize that I just can't cope.
I can't cope with the thought of leaving this place,
not seeing the locals everyday and feeling a part of something.
I can't cope with leaving my family behind,
not loving and laughing with them day in day out.
I can't cope with the thought of my life back home,
the lack of a job and idea of what I want to do.
I can't cope with the feeling of missing Matt so much.
...or even the thought of seeing him in the train station in three days time.
I can't cope with the intensity of this beautiful landscape,
with the Himalayas poking out as though it's normal to be so BIG.
Mainly, I just proper can't cope with the sheer amount of happiness I feel right now.
....I'm completely in love with a person and a place.
I probably feel happier than I ever have done before in my life.
I'm coming home in 2 days and I feel really scared.
I have things to look forward too that completely outweigh any bad things;
but coming home just feels weird.
On that note I will say good bye.... and good night to those of you in England.
I love you all,
Zara xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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I will put some pictures up of the Himalayas when I can, but my batteries are lacking life for the time being...
ReplyDeleteThe world is a beautiful place Zara and home is stunning at the moment with all the meadows in flower. You don't have to know what your future holds just enjoy every day. There will be gigs galore with Matt and you can come and share my workload, go to uni if that's what you choose and plan many more adventures. Life can be good and lovely and exciting and feeling feelings is all part of it and what makes your life fulfilling......honest guvner :-)) I love you a right lot and can't wait til Thursday xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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