Wednesday, 31 July 2024

Da Croazia a Roma: La piccola avventura del rientro.

Roma, quanto sei bella. Certo, non di notte. Di notte dalla stazione di Termini sei spaventosa, imprevedibile e puzzolente.

Il volo era in ritardo e sono stata fortunata a prendere l’ultimo treno. Trovare l’ostello è l’ultimo compito. Solitamente raggiungibile in 20 minuti, ho messo 10 per via di un uomo ‘misterioso’ dietro di me 🏃🏼‍♀️💨 Giro un angolo e sparisco, corro e arrivo. Sana e salva, entro in una stanza buia e, sudando nonostante l’aria condizionata, dormo di colpo.



Al risveglio mi trovo in una stanza piena di uomini con gli occhi fissi sui telefoni. Uno è anche bello. “Buongiorno”…niente. Vabbè, il bagno è libero! Dopo una veloce rinfrescata, una lavata dei denti molto apprezzata e un'abbondante applicazione di crema solare, sono pronta! Prima: caffè! 


Google mi porta ad un bar molto carino con la crostata vegana e il mio amato (e mancato) cappuccio alla soya. È pieno di gente sorridente e gentile; uomini al bar che mi fanno passare avanti, un gruppo di turisti entusiasti, un ragazzo al computer che lavora e sorseggia il suo caffè, una coppia che parlano della loro rispettive prospettive su cosa pretendono da una storia romantica (ascolto e mi sento felice di non dover parlare di cose simili con nessuno 😅), e così via. Insòmma, l’Italia che amo. Caffè culture at its best.



Con la pancia piena di zuccheri e riabituando alla dieta italiana, esco dritta per il metro. Evitando tutti i truffatori alla macchina dei biglietti, mi sento esageratamente compiaciuta: sì, sono inglese, ma non mi imbrogli più così facilmente. Con questo pensiero che balla nella testa, prendo una linea completamente a caso. Oops, sbagliata. Sì, sono inglese, e sono pure turista. The silver lining, però, è che c’è una pubblicità in inglese con la grammatica sbagliata. So per certo che avrò sempre un lavoro qua. Vedo poi sulla mappa che sono, per puro caso, molto vicina a Via Foligno. Dai, la devo vedere. Dopo una breve fermata a Conad, dove sostituisco tutto il liquido che ho sudato, vedo una strada molto deludente. 2 stelle su 5. Via Foligno dovrebbe essere molto, ma molto, più bella. 




Parto da qui e, questa volta, prendo la linea giusta. Voglio andare da Hilary al cimitero acattolico. Esco dal metro Piramide. Bella l’uscita con il piramide davanti, e c’è anche il mercato! Compro una camicia (saresti orgogliosa Hilary!) e arrivo alla destinazione. 



Sono passati 3 anni da quando sono stata l’ultima volta ma mi ricordo dove sta la tomba perché Hilary ha scelto il posto suo con cura. Sotto l’angelo, e soddisfacentemente vicino alla tomba di Percy Shelley. Mi sembra giusto. Lascio qualche fiore che ho preso dagli alberi per strada. Sono viole e delicate. Non dureranno, ma sono la mia piccola offerta a un’amica che manca. 




Giro un po’ e vedo che i gatti hanno scelto molto bene i posti per riposarsi. Un gatto è sdraiato sui piedi di una donna e rido sotto i baffi, finalmente può dormire là senza prendere i calci. 




Stranamente non mi sento triste. Anche quando parlo con te, Hilary, rido anziché piangere. Rido per le battute che mi faresti se ci fossi ancora. E ti ringrazio per avermi insegnato nel momento giusto di mandare a quel paese le persone che tolgono la gioia da questa vita. Ritengo che la vita è lunga se la vivi con decisione. Ogni tanto mi serve una promemoria di questa lezione, mi in questo periodo credo di seguirla con veemenza. 


Vado a vedere la tomba di Keats dove c’è seduta una coppia Australiana. Non riescono a leggere la scrittura e quindi la leggo ad alta voce. Mi raccontano il fatto che Keats non voleva il suo nome sulla tomba, una novità per me, e io racconto il fatto che tutto ciò che so dei poeti romantici viene da Hilary. Mi torna il ricordo delle sue conferenze; l’ansia che aveva prima di presentarle, i libri che divorava, i messaggi vocali che mi mandava prima di iniziare con la voce stridula dallo stress. E si salgono le lacrimi agli occhi. Rimango lì per il tempo che serve per ricordare diversi episodi. Tristi, assurdi, felici, divertenti e, sopratutto, sassy. Bella che eri. 





Da lì giro la città un po’ a caso. Prendo il metro pensando di tornare a Termini per prendere il treno verso casa, ma i piedi mi fanno uscire prima e faccio il solito giro del Colosseo, il monumento a Vittorio Emanuele, il Colonna Traiana e la Fontana di Trevi (ovviamente con il gelato). È pieno di gente, ma oggi anche di poliziotti, uno del quale mi fischia perché mangio il gelato troppo vicino alla fontana. Ma dai.. c’è peggio nel mondo. Ho visto questo monumento magnifico tre mille volte, sempre con il gelato 🥷🏼, quindi vado via dalla folla, dalle stupidaggine e dalla polizia. Passo attraverso la galleria Alberto Sordi (mai visto prima) e mi trovo davanti ad un’altra colonna.. questa è la Colonna di Marco Aurelio. Mai sentito e non so niente della sua storia. Sicuramente è molto affascinante, ma è semplicemente troppo caldo per controllare. 









Prendo l’autobus, parlo con due ragazze coreane simpaticissime (uno con un ventilatore meravigliosamente rinfrescante), perdo il mio stop, cammino verso Termini, compro due bottiglie di liquidi per, ancora una volta, ricostituire tutta l’acqua che ho perso in sudore, e salgo sul treno. 


Foligno, amore mio, arrivo ♥️

(per 6 giorni poi riparto per il Nepal, scusa!)



Friday, 4 May 2012

A morning of happy musical nostalgia



Hellooo, it has certainly been a while!


I'm having the first creatively productive day in a while. All of my university work is in for the year now and so the start of the run up to exams has begun. Revision can wait a day though. Instead, I would rather let my ink stained fingers tap on the keys, alongside musical goodness.


Since the last blog I have moved to Lancaster, started my course, met lots of new people, been to lovely places, etc., etc., etc... and generally things are going well!
I feel like I've 'lucked out' this year really. The English Language and Linguistics course at Lancaster is ridiculously good [əəz ʊtəliː ɪ̃ŋkɹiːsd̚ ma lʷʊv ə fənɛtɪks], my house mates are lovely - all 11 of them!, and I have met some really good friends so far.


7 of my house mates: Alex, Laura, Lucy, Kim, Ben, Bav, Me & Beth :)

I recently went to Italy and completely fell in love with Umbria. My friend Hannah has been living in Foligno for six months or so teaching English in various towns to various people or various ages. I'm going to look into this as a possible path for me to follow after graduating in the hope that it will provide a feasible career alongside travelling/living in a different country. Italy is at the top of the list at the moment. It was lovely to get away and see Hannah again. We watched films, made pasta and drunk wine in the evenings and I explored nearby towns during the day; I had the leasure of getting myself acquainted with Assisi, Santa Maria, Spello, Spoleto and a strange China town-esque area of Rome. I'm planning my trip back already - September!

Me and Hannah at 'La Lumaca Ubriaca' (The Drunk Snail)
Treated to a lovely meal and a bottle of red
bella Italia

There have been many more goings ons at the moment, but I think I will leave it at that for now...
except for one last note: over four months down, so it is now less than seven weeks until Matt returns home from South America! Yippeeeeeeeeeeeee

niceness
Ciao for now!

Wednesday, 28 September 2011

A date with education


Yet another year of study is approaching.

My summer has been a combination of utter contentedness and consistent daggers of anxiety. Of course there have been emotions in between, but lets just keep it black and white for now!

I came away from Bangor with an experience of a life time. It was, as a whole, a lonely and bloody well frustrating year. I met friends, had laughs and studied hard; but never once did I feel that all consuming bubble of happiness there. I learnt that if you're not happy with something in your life, change it. So I did.

In 3 days time I am moving to Lancaster and enrolling at the university to study my second year of English Language and Linguistics. Exciting and scary. I'm worried that I won't meet people, won't have fun, won't understand the classes - all the silly things that you know you shouldn't worry about, but do!

I'm at that stage where I want to be around people all the time. When I'm on my own I think about Matt and his rapidly approaching trip; he's soon to be travelling South America for 5 1/2 months (!) - something I find difficult to talk about due to how big an adjustment/challenge it will be to face and how bloody scared I am. He leaves in just over two months.
Just before Christmas and our 2 year anniversary (woe is me!).

So, change of place, people, course and life style is very much on the cards and it's daunting and scary and just one of those things that you can't predict until it happens.

Life is a bit hard sometimes. Int it.

Friday, 5 November 2010

Long over-due photos

The family!!!!
Sabina, Suraz, Aama, Buwa and Jessie

My visit to the Monkey Temple

Flying alongside the Himalayas






My wonderful family: (From top left) Jessie, Uncle Ramesh, my cousin Rabina, Aunty Kamana, baby Ragina, me, cousin from another household, cousin Rabin, Buwa Rajesh (dad), Hasuraama (grandma) and Aama Shymu (mum).
Suraz (my brother) took the photo and Sabina (my sister) was away.



















Hasuraama, on the morning we set off back to England.















Second parents. I miss them so much!

Me and my roomie, Jessie, at Sirutar school.

A good way to start the day.

A typical breakfast!

A little girl I met in the village, Sabina.
She came to play with us and gave me a flower in return.





Dikshya Rai Uka, the little girl from the
orphanage that drew a picture for me of a house
with running water and flowers.
I would have adopted her in a second if I could!


















My cousin Ragina. She lived with us and brightened up every day.
She is quite possibly the cutest baby on this earth.
..and her shoes squeeked when she walked..






















One of the many labourors I was blessed to work with. He was up there for hours, hammerring the wobbly framework together.















I took this photo on the way back from Lamatar - where the other group of volunteers were living and working.
We ended up missing the last bus home so walked our way back to Sirutar as the sun was setting.

When the Lamatar lot came to visit Sirutar.
Haven't quite got everyone in I don't think.
Bal Krishna was their supervisor (bottom right) and he is a funny funny man.
"What is the craaack?!"

Mint and Cherry shisha in Kathmandu.

This is Cha Cha
(which means uncle)
He told me that he saw me as his daughter on this day.
He's a very nice man




Me and Aama.
If there is anything that I miss about Nepal, over all else, it is this woman.
She is beautiful, kind and funny.
I miss her loads
and loads
























I love this photo















Nagarkot
We watched the sunrise over the Himalaya.
The beauty was so vast and overwhelming!

This is my brother Suraz with the guitar I brought over.
He was learning to play so the guitar
stayed when it came time for me to leave.

Aaron, Rowan and I showing off the view from outside our houses.
This is what happened on a clear day!
Beauty beauty beauty
..the mountains, not us..

Monday, 24 May 2010

I just can't cope

Currently talking to Matt on the Wonder that is Facebook and I've come to realize that I just can't cope.

I can't cope with the thought of leaving this place,
not seeing the locals everyday and feeling a part of something.
I can't cope with leaving my family behind,
not loving and laughing with them day in day out.
I can't cope with the thought of my life back home,
the lack of a job and idea of what I want to do.
I can't cope with the feeling of missing Matt so much.
...or even the thought of seeing him in the train station in three days time.
I can't cope with the intensity of this beautiful landscape,
with the Himalayas poking out as though it's normal to be so BIG.

Mainly, I just proper can't cope with the sheer amount of happiness I feel right now.

....I'm completely in love with a person and a place.

I probably feel happier than I ever have done before in my life.

I'm coming home in 2 days and I feel really scared.

I have things to look forward too that completely outweigh any bad things;
but coming home just feels weird.

On that note I will say good bye.... and good night to those of you in England.

I love you all,

Zara xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Friday, 21 May 2010

The last day of work!

Today was the last day of construction work.. what a relief!
I've actually really enjoyed the work, it's been a right challenge at times! Feels good to have achieved so much and I'm now looking forward to spending these last 6 days work-free! Yippee!

The first floor is getting done!!! Chuffed!

The majority of the volunteers have gone to Thamel again to enjoy the city for the last time, but I've chosen to spend it here in my village with my famly. Can't believe I have to leave it all!!!! I've been spending a lot of time on my rooftop recently.. I've taken to bringing my guitar up there and writing or singing songs and looking at the beautiful mountains that surround us. I love it!!!!

I often go up in the mornings and chill out before the day begins - I generally go up at around 7.30 and feel the heat set in!
The photos just don't do it justice!

It's been a strange week. Simply in the fact that I've witnessed SO much animal sacrifice. This was one of the things that was putting me off coming to Nepal with Platform2 but when I read in to it, I didn't get the impression that it happened quite so often!
To be fair though, there has only been one animal sacrifice - at the Nepali New Year - up until now... and all I saw of that was the goat. Alive.

In my last blog I mentioned the sacrifice I witnessed on Monday..
Well, since then there has been one a day, then four yesterday and today hundreds were brought to their fate. I experienced them parading the bodies of the animals around with their head on a platter along with other offerings (both goats and ducks) as well as seeing them splash the blood from their severed necks up the walls of the temples.


If I was to read this I wouldn't have thought that I could handle it.But being here, I just have to. I can't bring myself to condone it, or even accept it... but I can keep my opinions to myself and get on with it. On the second day I got emotional about it because it was the second time I'd seen it and was then told that it would be happening up until we leave. I cried in to my wheelbarrow for a while then got on with the day quietly, with the odd conversation of 'just why???'. It was proper hard cos it just doesn't seem right to me. I know that the meat is eaten and everything from the animal is used... but I just don't like the reason behind it. I don't like the fact that it is done for religion and done to please a god. A god who desires blood.
I was speaking to Khyam about it and he said that in the Terai region, where he's from, there's a festival every year where his family would sacrifice at least 4 goats. He then went on to say that he doesn't condone this and they now spill the blood of coconuts instead. As more of a symbol.
I hope this is a sign of change over here.
.........I hope this isn't me being ignorant!

Anyway, that's all for now as I'm gonna head towards the noodle bar. Hopefully haven't been bitten to smitherines by the bloody mozzies in here - AGAIN!

See you all soon!

Zara